Have you ever fel like you keep gettingt far away from god more and more?

my family are really into god and they want me to too but i don't got that feeling and that much belief in god and sometimes it make me furious that everybody keeps trying to make me be totally into god but i just don't know what to do or what to think and to make things a little more complicated my mom set me up to get baptized and you know what that means. so i need help what to do.